out of the rear view mirrors....

We often sit and ponder the past. I'm not sure why because when thinking about the past you aren't living in the present and most certainly cannot see the future.

We think of "the good old days" we long for times years ago. In these moments we are missing the now and each other.

Have we not any value in who we've become, the people we have grown into? That makes no sense to me. Then why grow? Why educate? Why dig deeper into our souls and look for people to share our lives with?

I've chosen people to get to know and share my life with. We are all ever changing and growing. These are all good things. Sure, some things are different now. It's not EVERYONE at volleyball then doing one o'clock shots and playing pool on a Sunday night. Does that lessen the value of our family? For me it doesn't. Do I sometimes wish I could count on looking over and seeing the face of my champion challenging mother to a game of pool while dad "checks the lights" outside? I most certainly do. Every Sunday. Then I take a second and realize that what we've become is just as good. Mother and I inventing some sort of shot while Timmy does his homework and reads someone. Before any of that happens champion stops in for a cup of coffee and to tell some ridiculous story before singing one song and heading out the door.

Then there was two Mondays ago. That very special moment in time when we all converged on the cafe at once. We ALL stayed til the very last call occured. We joked, had a beer or two, a shot or two, a bottle of water or two. There we were that whole family. Not planned at all, but it felt good. And only the day before someone was complaining about not being able to grab the past and bring it back. I wonder if in that moment on that late late Monday night they realized what I did? You can't touch the past so stop reaching for it and enjoy the present and look to the future.... it all falls in line and feels just as good.